Neema Shaw
i began working in the hot food area ..i had to cook 60 roast chickens a day i worked with 17 year old greek girl and a middle-aged greek women both nice ladys …they taught me how to cook everything make the food ..how to clean the oil trays every week …finding our food in the big freezers out the back wow the things that go behind doors at shopping centres was cool ….i only worked a few days a week …then once i knew more i was given more hours …it was so nice to finally have money too for the first time buy my own smokes and clothes too i loved it ….there was a guy who worked there too he was so tall he came and got his lunch everyday and we chatted for a bit before the boss came to the back of the store for his lunch too this guy was the tallest human i had ever seen in my life 6.ft 7 i think he was ..gorgeous dark features too again what i liked best ..he finally asked me out on a date one night … he picked me up and took me on a long country drive thru windy roads …which reminded me of our camping trips we did with dad many years ago ..i hated those windy roads ..during the day you could see down the steep hills and always prayed we didnt drive over the edge ..it was so scary but at night you didnt see that bit so it was a nice drive …we stopped at a look out and just sat in the car and talked for hours and laughed ….on our way home his car began spluttering and making strange noises and then the motor just stopped dead ….we were on a dark road no street lights miles away from home no houses near us at all ..i was shitting myself thinking what if he kills me what if i never get home .ok ok settle down i think a car drives by and he waves it down he leaves me in the car alone in the dark as he gets driven to a house not far up the road to make a call to get a tow truck to come get us ..he comes back and we sit and wait ..ok i felt safe again now he is a nice guy after all anyway i work with him i know rather well ..so we talk again for a bit we then begin to kiss he reaches over and grabs my breast and squeezes then a few times ..ok i thought i guess i need to do the same back to him but to his penis area so i grabbetween his legs and gentle rub and squeeze him back he then goes between my legs and as we kiss and rub each other he grabs and pulls his penis out …wow shit this is a big one i think ok ok what do i do now with it ..i sure as hell aint putting that in my mouth ..so i grab his penis and being rubbing and pulling him until he blows ..oh god all over my hand that stuff no matter who it comes from is just crap i hate it so much its wet gooy and just dirty stuff what a fucking mess …i clean my hands with some cloth i find on his floor ..dont care what it was ..as ling as it wasnt all over me ..just then the tow truck arrives ..he didnt even get time to satisfy me one bit a boob grab wasnt good enough but too late now .we sit in the truck and take the hour long drive back home i get dropped of around the corner as the truck will just be to loud and everyone in the street will be looking out there windows at me …..the next day at work i didnt see him ..he didnt come for lunch that day ..or the next day or the next …i was dumped before we even dated ..now i felt like i was a slut ….i gave him something for nothing .. had i just whored myself out to him that night …he sure as hell made me feel like it ….so it must be true …i am a slut oh my god …i didnt know his car was going to break down ..i didnt know he was going to take his cock out to me …now i feel like a whore …..
lucky for me i got over pretty quick ..thinking he was a prick wasnt he .i knew damn fucking well nothing was my fault and he wonted to miss out on me then fine .be an asshole then …i got on with my work and that was that …the younger girl i worked with who was about 17 was getting payed as full time while i was on a casual wage ….as her and the older women trained me up to do everything in the small shop i began getting all the hours .including opening up ..thursday nights and working Saturdays alone and closing shop counting the til…i was working my ass off and had no time to think about dating let alone even spending my money ..i got to work when it was dark and caught the bus home when it was dark i was getting paid fantastic money ..only to walk thru the doors on payday to see my mum sitting on the cough with not a word said but her hand stretched out wanting to see my pay slip then taking exactly half my pay each week …..leaving me now with just enough to buy my smokes bus tickets and a small amount of spending money …it use to piss me off i worked fucking hard for my money and then when the young girl found out how much i was earning which was double hers she got pissed off with me began treating me like shit yelling at me ..putting demands on my i couldnt possible do …i ran the whole shop cooked all the food .made all the sandwiched did all the dishes ..closed up shop mopped …it was all i did now so it was a nice relief
…………………………………….roland
.to .walking home from the bus stop and the house on the corner of my street there lived this german family with two boys .well they had grown up now i use to watch them kick the footy around when i was very little .they were older boys and faded in the street ..
.but while walking past his house each night i saw roland in his driveway fixing a car ..and we said a polite hello as i walked past ….it then became a hello how you you today kind of chat while walking past his house ….after a few weeks i started tos top and chat with him ….again he was so tall. blonde messy hair he was rather ungroomed and sloppy actual and i was 15 and we was about 24 he wasnt the sexiest thing i have seen but our conversations were nice ..he complimented me told me how pretty i was and he has been watching me walk by for many years now but to shy to talk to me because i was so young he got a bit funny and didnt wont people to see us talking so i was invited into his shed to talk each night ….thats all it ws just a chat in his shed …his mum a few times came in being a german women she was very loud and spoke to him roughly but then he was a 24 year old living t home with no job she was always on his back and asked about us a few times where he yelled back we were just talking and dont be stupid it was scary but funny ..many times he sent me home when his mother came out ..she was a firy women indeed ..i lived across the road from them for 10 years and i never heard a thing ..but now i did ……one night in his shed after us talking for quite a while he kissed me …..oh this was nice i thought …getting some different attention from him which is what i had been hoping for .after all we got on really well and held conversations great ..sure the age difference was illegal so we kept it very quiet not telling anyone ..on weekends when i hung out in the street with my friends they would ask me if i was seeing him ..but i always said no way he is too old …but in my head i was in heaven thinking how cool am i secretly dating this older man.. my god it was exciting .
.he drove on ald station wagon he called betsy .as he was fixing her up we went on many drives to test her ..i cant count how many times she broke down on the road or simply didnt start up ..i dont think he was a good mechanic at all …i wonder if thats why his mum yelled at him all the time ….we did manage to go to the drive in one day in her thou she only broke down two times i think and managed to get home not to late ….mum knew i was talking to him and i never stayed out to late casue i had work the next day .so my visits were short ones a few hours if that …..it was always hard for us to find a private place or time to have sex by this time i was missing badly and wonted to do all the time with him ..i knew i wasnt in love and knew we had no future but after all i thought and felt i was a bit of a slut by this stage so it was ok for me to sleep with him and not have any emotional connnection ..it was just sex for us both ..it was ok ..wasnt it ?..it was summer and his mum wasnt home he was to scraed to take me into the house ..so we lay on the well looked after grass out the back under the moon and stars and we had sex with him on top …it was over with fast but did the job …i have to say thou at this stage .roland was my 3rd lover and i still had not experienced an orgasm yet ..in fact i didnt know they existed realy sex still felt good …after all there wasnt much really to it was there in and out ..in and out and its all over …
..we did have fun one night thou we drove old besty to the beach car park one night to spend some time alone together ,,ok to have sex …we climbed in the back took our clothes off as best we could in the small area and he lay on top of me ….gee. i seemed to have sex in the missionary position most of the time with all the guys ive been with or in cars too anyway the carpark was pretty empty of other cars we had our own private secluded spot as we bounced the car around …him sweating all over me and he was a bad kisser too plus his penis was fucking huge we always had an issue at first trying to get him inside me all the time and yes a few times the vaseline had to be in use ….his body on top of me was like double my size i was so petite and tiny underneath him ….as i wrap my legs around his waist for more room to bounce the car ….it was all dark and then all of a sudden there was a light flashing around the car ….then flashing inside the car as it got closer …oh my god i could see thru the foggy glass that is was a police officer. already caught thou as we both try to get dressed ..roland is in a big panic trying to still lie on top of me ..he didnt wont the officer to see me because of my age ..he put on his pant and wound down the back window the whole time trying to cover my face from the officer …hs torch shining in the car asking us what we were doing ….well he couldnt lie could he …his white ass had been seen bouncing in the back of the car with torch right on him the officer knew we were having sex and smiled …told us to move on ..still not getting a good look at my face as roland kept moving in the way keeping the light of me ..roland was shitting himself big time it was fuckin funny ……not that he thought so ….
we had been doing our little night dance for some time now and some rumours were getting around the neighborhood of us seeing each other .mum had gotten wind of it and told me one day after work that i was not to go see him anymore ..i dont relay know what her issue ws but she can fuck off i work all fucking week to give half my pay she will not be telling me what i can and cant do on the weekends and with who anymore..we have this big argument screaming match she tell em if i go there to not bother coming home ever again …i slam door and go to my room ….it was now the time i usually am at his house i knew he would be looking for em so i ripped my window screen wire and climb out the window at night to go there …..he took me to meet some of his friends that night .it was a long drive tooo…this was going to be an all night trip mum is so gonna kill me now ….but meh who cares …..we get to this house go in and met everyone there is this fat blonde guy with his women then a scrubby smelly man with his lady too then this amazing gorgeous dark haird man who gets up out of his seat offers his spot to me but first grabs me hand and shakes it roland sits down too but this italian man sits right in between us a bit rude i thought but fuck he is 100 times hotter than my roland ….and he smelt so good …..everyone is talking while i sit there so shy in my corner seat ..there all adults here 6 of then all sitting all over the place in this small room the men on charis the women on the floor …lots of conversations goin on and many many pipes and bongs getting smoked …it was disgusting and make me feel really sick …because the smell reminded me of when i tried my first water bong at 14 i sucked and sucked as hard as i could on the fowl smelling and tasting shit then i blew it out and vomited all over the floor ..never touched the stuff again makes feel sick and here i was sitting in a room with 6 people ll smoking it the young guy tony keep offering me one but i shyly refuse and look away from him ..the women begin there conversation about work ..holy shit there both strippers and get fully naked too ..omg i wonted to go home i was 15 nieve scrared and didnt wont to be there but roland was so stoned and now drunk too there was no way i was getting home tonight ..tony keeps looking at me and giving em these cute boyish smiles ..it turns out his parents live around the corner from me he grew up in the same suburb as me too ….he was 21 thou so we didnt meet at school even
i got home about 8.30 the next day to find mum wouldnt let me in the house she refused to open the door ..so i went back to me bedroom window climbed thru it unpacked my stuff ..then walked out and went to the toilet ..mum saw me but just called me a bitch and that was the end of it …..i continued on with roland he made it clear to me that we werent going to go anywhere with us at all
